再苦我也要陪你渡過.♥

2010-07-22T14:58:00.002+08:00

Please direct yourself to
Lovethewayyouliez@bs
:D:D:D Thankyou!

2010-07-22T09:44:00.000+08:00

I WANNA CHANGE BLOG URL :(
So many bad memories. LOLOLOLOL.
ROFLttm.

Gonna head to plaza later on. (Y)
Print pictures decorate room ^_^

2010-07-21T06:57:00.002+08:00

He's gone from my life.
I'm letting him go.
And also I'm fucking off from him :D:D
I feel carefree nowwwww.

&that special someone,
let's hope everything will go one smoothly between us :D
21072010.

2010-07-21T01:27:00.002+08:00

Thinking back.
How much you've put in this relationship.
I'll never fail to think how much I've tried to push you away..
The urge to send you all the drafts i drafted in my inbox..
Just so you know what had happened to me before that day's quarrel...
And what happened when we were having chalet...
But the courage I once had it's no longer there...

Thinking back,
You found me in Pasir Ris Park at the last minute.
You told me we're fated to meet.
Fate.... ha... it just like to fool around with people's feelings..
You even offered to give the person who found me 10 bucks...

But now.. if I were go missing again.
Will you do all this to make sure I'm fine & safe?

Our story.. this ending...
the treatment i get from you..

I envy the couples on the streets.
How sweet they were. And how sweet were we...

I was the one who destroyed all this.
But also the one picking up the pieces now...

Does it really matter whether are you the first that I've made the video before?

Comparing you to him..
I'll dare to say.. you mattered more...

But now.. I really do not know what to do.

Hiding all the fears I have.

I wish you're here.

The miracle I'm hoping.

Still pinning hopes on you.

I may be silly,
stupid,
naive,
dumb,
crazy;
It's just because of you. 587846...

2010-07-20T22:47:00.001+08:00

HEY ALLLLLL.
Removed tagboard. Anything comment me ok!
:D

2010-07-18T03:21:00.002+08:00

Did it in advance....
Afraid that I might not have the time to do it for you....
都是我的错。。。

i'll update this space soon.......

2010-07-16T04:17:00.000+08:00

I don't deny the fact that I still do need you.
And I'll do anything and everything to restore everything back to normal.

第三天，我终于明白。

2010-07-16T01:44:00.002+08:00

1.45 a.m. 16 July 2010.
It marks the third day you've ignored me..
I couldn't stop crying the moment you went online.
I don't know why too. Even tho I didn't talk to you.
I still cried. Why..... Why can't you be the one being there for me always.
3 days already. I've been waiting for your message everyday.
I've been putting up strong front telling others' I'll be fine.
But I'm not. I'm just not fine without you.
whatever it is.. please remember to drink lots of water since your throat isn't feeling well.
eat your meals please.. you're damn skinny already...
don't over work. sleep early.. you're working now...

我明白我不够好。
对不起，都是我的错。
我认输了。你却再也不会回来了。
我知道该怎么做了。。。放心的过你的生活吧。。

leaving you,the only option for me?

2010-07-15T07:34:00.002+08:00

OH BOYYYYYYYYY.
Sherlyn havent reply me :(
don't tell me she's not yet awake leh!!!
WALAOOOO. D:
Again ah!!! GOing school alone -_-!!!!
Nevermindddddd. Today's program = School,dismiss,go home KUN.
Or maybe going down to lot1...
ROFLZ. And people,stop asking me about J..
K!!! if you want me to be happy. LOLOLOOOL.
second month? guess we can't even survive until than hmms.
gonna be prepared for the worse! :)
even tho i know im gonna cry again -.-
LOOLOLL. k fuck. ROFL. k la. abit sot :/
Gonna prepare as soon as mummy iron finish my uniform :D
Sherlyn faster reply k!!!! :(

Hey youuuu,
I'm still waiting for your message ;)

第二天；放弃你，

2010-07-15T06:43:00.002+08:00

Today's the second day you ignored me.
How am I doing? I guess I was fine initially..
Till I saw some things.. I guess I finally know what to do...
Yesterday I wished when I'm awake you'll tell me "dear,everything's gonna be fine between us ;D"
But I woke up with no text of yours'... so I decided to text you..
I reminded you from time to time to take care of yourself.. to eat your meals..
to drink more water.. but no replies from you...
well.. actually i didn't expect you to reply me..
our relationship.. it isn't as strong as I thought...
but i really thought... really thought you were the one for me..
I guess I was really naive...
Left with 7 more days...
I tried keeping myself occupied with friends...
trying to stop thinking about you from time to time..
but whenever they mention you i can't stop thinking about how i've let us became like this..
都是我不对。对你的任性已远远超标你对我的人耐性。
我想弥补我对你的伤害。。你却离我越来越远。。
多一个礼拜就是我们的第二个月，可是当我看到我不想看到的一切你动我多么的想放弃了吗？
假如说你真的想回到她的身边，我真心地祝福你们。。
我知道他会比我更好。或许会比我更爱你。。
对不起，让你跟我在一起感到那么压力。。
照顾好你的身体，不要让自己在生病了。。
因为我不能够在你身边照顾你了。。

最后的温柔，
陈俊衔，对不起；我爱你。♥

2010-07-08T07:54:00.003+08:00

All I want you to do is to fetch me from school.
All I want you to do is to send me to school.
All I want you to do is to know when to cheer me up when I seem to not be myself.
All I want you to do is love me for me.
All I want you to do is to know how to stop me from crying when I'm crying..

Is all this request so hard to do?
So much things I had kept to myself.
So much things I told myself to let it go.
So much things I wanna tell you.

But everytime there seems to be something blocking me from saying and doing.
I know I'm not good at giving in to you.
I know I'm not good at giving you the best attitude.
I know I'm not good at handling situations like this.
I know you've been holding on when I'm pushing you away.

But whenever I really wanna talk to you nicely everything just turn out to be bad.
I'm starting to lose my senses.
I'm starting hate myself for treating you like this.
I'm starting to not know who I am.

I'm stubborn. I'm short tempered. I'm not the ideal girlfriend for every guy.
But I know for every relationships I had I've gave my all.
I wanna change. I really wanna..
I want to find back the Mxy in 2007.
When she's able to think. Able to give in. Able to talk calmly even when there's a situation..

after so much setbacks I've grown to be like this.
all this while I've tried changing back to the me in 2007.
But no matter how hard I try to.. I'll still revert to the same old me..
Time.. I need time.....

I miss 2007.
If I could I'll travel back to that time.
If only I can find that mxy back I won't give up so easily.
I won't lose my temper so easily.
I won't be this weak...

Once I'm back to be the Mxy I once was.
It'll then be a brand new start for me...

For the time being.. will anyone support me?
Will anyone be there to catch me when I'm falling?
I hope so...

Goodbye blogger..
I'll be blogging at onsugar/tumblr for the time being.

Till then,fateisgone

You'll always be my baby.

2010-07-06T06:10:00.002+08:00

Helloooo alllll.
I'm back!:)
Will try to be more active at blogging.
@_@ Had been accompanying baby recently :)
Many things had happened.
Don't think there's a need for me to say it out ehs.
So longggggggggggggg. :B
Gonna head to school later on!
Hope time will past faster later on.
Can't wait to see boyfriend after school!
Gonna fetch Royce & have lunch with him first!:)
Can't wait to see my dearest choonhan too!:) hehehe.
Hope today will be a better day!;')

JustinTan,
I can't do without you. ♥

2010-07-01T21:37:00.000+08:00

I've lost all my interest in blogging.
I might not be coming back to blog till I feel like.
Goodbye.

2010-06-25T05:19:00.003+08:00

I'm here to post and I'm going to bed & sleeeeeep.

Recently our relationship had not been stable..
Quarrels every now and than. Causing me to feel more and more insecure..
Even when it's our 1st month I still have the fear that you're leaving me on that day.
From time to time you tried to assure me everything's gonna be alright.
But still i just don't think that way. :/
Until when our 1st month was over. And I got to spend more time with you recently.
I know I might not be good enough for you. But as long as I have a heart that loves you,isn't all that matters?
Especially when you just sent me home just now. After i reached home I read the msg I was touched.
Tho you did not wrote anything that's sweet like what my ex(s) wrote.
But I felt your love. ;)

I can't promise you that I'll not hurt you.
Neither can I promise you that I can always be there for you always. (cause i need to sleep :B)
But I can promise you that I'll love you the same even if anything happens to us.
Also I can promise you that I'll try to be the best for you.

Thank you Mr Tan Chun Xian!
I really don't know what to say anymore /:
But there's this 3 words I'll never be sick of saying it to you.
& that is, i love you (:

All about you

2010-06-24T05:34:00.004+08:00

Currently at boyfriend's house~
Stayed over since 23rd June. Going back home later in the afternoon ;D
So let's blog about what happened around this 2 days~

22 June 2010,♥
First month! :D
Boyfriend woke up at 5.40pm plus. Like seriously,one pig only -.-
After he called me,went to prepare & went over to his house.
Waited for him to be ready. Left at about 7plus going 8?
Reached lot1 straight go up and buy tickets for "The A-Team".
Initially wanted to watch "Toys' Story 3" cause i don't like violent show.
But I know actually boyfriend wanna watch that so watch with him :D
After buying tickets went down to Couple Lab. Went to look for the design we chose the other day.
But in the end we chose another one :B
Decided to engrave our dates only as we think that it's super duper cursed to engrave our names.
hehehe. no choice. we don't want to be cursed by it. FAKE~
After ordering and boyfriend paid for it we went over to AJ mart to buy cig :O
Walked back,shared a stick then went up for movie already (Y)
The show was damn nice I tell you :B:B:B:B:B
After movie went over to find Royston Ahgong~
Slack with him until 2am plus. ^_^
When we're about to go off something happened between me and boyfriend :/
So I walked from teckwhye to limbang to find Jason &co.
Something happen ah~ cannot say. LOL. kthx^_^
Talked to boyfriend but he still don't catch my meaning. ahh... jitao sian :/
But never mind. lol~ went to boyfriend's house and slept~

23 June 2010
boyfriend keep waking me up in the morning when I'm sleeeeeping :'(
cause he can't sleep he wanna disturb me. JIALAT!
in the end i pushed him away and ask him to find ways to sleep then i went back to sleep :B
Woke up at 1 plus. Raining heavily. I was so bored :(
So went back to bed and cuddled into his arms. Just nice thunder,i jumped a little but boyfriend hugged me tightly♥♥♥♥ hoho.
but i guess he don't remember la. he was half awake and half sleeping. LOL
In simple words we stayed all day at home till just now we went to meet Adrian.
Just got back homeeeeeee. I'm a happy girl cause I'm gonna collect our rings later on in the afternoon!
I can't wait to get the rings. ♥♥♥♥
Boyfriend's gonna hit gym with Jie Sen. After he finished gyming im gonna go and find him ^_^

Oh btw! Will not be updating from 25th June - 27th June(morning).
Chalet for me,boyfriend & co♥♥♥♥♥.
Super shiokkkkk. But this week is the last holiday. :( awww.
Gonna miss accompanying boyfriend! Cause im going back to schoooool.
Hopefully for gooooood. :B Gonna end this post & acc boyfriend already :x
If not later he say i want blog don't want him. (Y).
Buaiiiiizx readers!:D:D:D:D

note to self,
rmb to remind boyfriend to give me his keys before i go home ._.

Thank you baby♥
Even tho it's just a simple celebration you've planned for us.
I'm still contented.
For all this things you've done for me,I appreciate it. ;)
I love you dearest sweetheart!♥♥♥

2010-06-22T16:19:00.000+08:00

Aww man!
Boyfriend's still asleep! What am I supposed to do man!:(
4.20 already leh. I think he midngiht then wake up lo.
Feel like calling him.. Maybe I'll call him later at 5. T_T
Guess I'm gonna go entertain myself with Ben10 now.
Buaizzzx

Yours' to keep.

2010-06-22T04:13:00.006+08:00

Happy First Month Baby!
After so much we've been through. I'm so glad we've made it this far.
And of course I'm sure this will not be our last monthsary yea! :)
I really wanna thank you for being so thoughtful to me.
Thank you for always giving me chances(unknowingly) when I'm always repeating my stupid & dumb mistake.
Thank you for choosing to stay by my side despite me hurting you from time to time.
Thank you for everything!!! I really appreciate it! ;')!!
But still.
I'm sorry for breaking that promise I made to you that time.
I'm sorry for my attitude & temper.
I'm sorry for letting you feel like a toy.
But this time I won't break that promise anymore. cause i really don't wanna learn how to cherish after I lost you completely.
And hopefully you'll cherish me like how I cherish you ;D

I don't care how others' judge our relationship.
I don't care how others' talk about us.
I don't care how others' think that we will not be together for long.
I just care that I know you're mine and I'm your's.
I just care that I love you.
I just care that you're now the priority in my life.

Even the smallest things you've ever done for me means the whole world to me.
And never will I allow anyone or anything to change what we are now.

& Lastly! Babyboy,I want you to know that; I Love You! (:

2010-06-20T17:35:00.002+08:00

I'll never get sick of you.
My dearest boyfriend ♥

Didn't meet baby for 2 days finally yesterday he came to find me!:)
I was with Daughter tho ^_^v And baby came at about 10plus 11. jitao fail please. LOL
Went over to Ave3 & slacked with Tiande & Co. Baby went off at 4 plus as he have family outing :/
Tiande & co. wanted to go off too. But Daughter wanna stay till 6 plus so they accompany us (Y)
Went off at 6. Reached home,removed make up. Wanted to go and meet Yihhsien but he never showed up!
waited for 20plus minutes. went back home onlined :/
Talked to Daughter,gossiped with her. Then Zen randomly came and talk to me -.-
In the end we webcam. Nonsense lo please. His webcam is so blurzxzx. Not like mineeez.
went to eat at about 10 plus. offed webcam with him. After eating & told daughter to take care of herself I went to sleep ^_^
Just woke up 2 hrs ago...... slept for 6 hrs only. Alamak :/
Messaged baby but he didn't reply. Just went to Skype & he's online. Confirm dota or the new game he downloaded -.-
LOLOL. Angry~ fake ^_^ I can't sleep anymore :(
Anybody wanna come my house downstairs find me? ^_^v
Gonna end here already ba. Hehehehe. Anything text me k!:)
& much more active at twitter alr :) wanna know more follow me ^_^

Huimin ♥
Daughter,it's his lost for losing you.
Not your lost. He gave you up.
But you didn't. In fact you fought for your rights.
Don't be upset anymore k!
Mother promise to be there for you :) loveyou!xx.

JustinTan!♥♥♥♥♥♥
Baby! I hope you like your 1stmonthsary gift :)
I didn't buy it hor! I did it by myself :/
So xinku. Furthermore I hurt myself while doing it :/
So you must appreciate it! I don't care. Hahaha :)
I'll save all the sweet words for our 1st monthsary's post! :B
Enjoy yourself today! I love you ;)

2010-06-17T10:05:00.002+08:00

Promise me your stay.

Should I head to panjang later on to play basketball?
Maybe I should... a good way to relieve stress or rather anything I'm unhappy about..
since i've the intention to go panjang since long time ago cause i wanna visit the new daiso at Bpp.
I wonder anybody wanna meet? If not I guess it'll be a day alone today....
Should I head back to sleep? Cause I can't sleep at all... Sighs..
I guess I'm stopping here already.. Anything find me at Twitter/facebook/phone.
Bye...

mysweetestdream..myonlyfear..

2010-06-15T07:58:00.005+08:00

After going thru so much with you,
This is getting stronger ♥

^_^ Kad's back to Singapore! With my souvenirs (Y) weeeheehehehe.
Back to dearest's house!
He's still sleeping. ^_^v
Raining heavily now~ Colddddd. Furthermore dearest on aircon~ Oh myyyy.
Gonna head to audi after I post!
So... recently it've been quite happening uhs.
Me & dearest nearly broke up twice. YES TWICE T_T
No more third time I hope.. Even if so I guess it'll be his decision :/
Oh well. should talk about happy things ^_^v
In 3 more days it's our class bbq.. I wonder who is coming huhs?
nobody's updating me with the things.. Only know we should gather outside school at 12/12.30pm on 18 June~
Who is going eh"!?!?! tag me laaaa. :B
Sorry for abandoning this blog for dk how many days. HAHAHA.
Seriously lost the interest to blog since not much people had been tagging/viewing it:/
Guess I'm gonna update soon again when I feel like! Buaiz peepozx!

Baby!
7 more days to our sweet sweet 1st monthsary!:)
I wanna thank you for being so patient with me
& also letting me have such a darling daughter like Huimin♥.
I hope by now our love is much more stronger not weaker uh!
I know I always do things to piss you off. But I hope you'll be patient with me.
As I'm really trying my best to change! As you can see,I don't really 发脾气 on you already.
RIGHT? :D Be glad,be very glad! :)
I'm really thankful for everything you've done for me.
I don't wish to lose you. & I'll never let you go anymore!
I'll hold you tight & chain you to me. ♥ (Y)
Best right :) Hehehs.
With you around,I'll never be afraid to fall anymore :)
I love you sweetheart. Wholeheartedly♥

2010-06-11T01:15:00.002+08:00

Nothing's gonna change my love for you.
If I say you're my last. You will be.
I love you. For who you are.
Even the most annoying thing you're always doing.
You'll always be my baby.

22nd May 2010. Justin Tan, You're my only.

things i promised.
i'll do it.
promises made with you ain't meant to be broken but kept.
For everything I've done that made you upset.
I'm sorry. But I love you..

2010-06-08T11:27:00.001+08:00

HIIIIIIIIIII.
Gonna let this blog rot since it's already rotting!

That's all! Anything find me at twitter/facebook :)

Your words doesn't bring me down.
Instead,it makes me stronger :)

(Y) Likeeeee

2010-06-05T19:16:00.002+08:00

I love you & that's a fact that nobody can change it.
Justin Tan,You're my only ♥

Hellooooooo Everyoneeeee.
Readership went down again! Better update everyday if not really nobody read uhs! :(x

Yesterday went to lot1 & watched 'The Prince of the Persia' with Boyf,Huixian,Kenneth,Changkai,Tiande & Jiesen.
Funfunfun! I got scared by the sound effects so many times :(
After movie went over to 288 to slack~
One by one left~ In the end left with me,boyfriend,tiande & changkai.
Took cab back to Yewtee at 3plus. O:
Went back to bf's house,took money. Walked to Limbang to find Yihhsien & co.
Walked back at 5plus & went to Mcdonalds to buy breakfast (Y)
Went back to bf's house & ateeeee. Hehehehehe.
Fell asleep at 8am plus. & now Royce is looking at me post o_o
So weirdddddd. Muahahahahaha.
Gonna head to Bugis tomorrow I guess. (Y) Anybody wanna tag along text me pl0x~

2010-06-02T16:21:00.002+08:00

Will you be there to pick me up if I fall?

Hey yooooooooooooooooo.
Bf's dumb. like seriously DUMB.
Bf insist that I stayover till his sister is coming back home ehs -_-
Just because I say Shanice is cute & i wanna meet her.
Now he say I cannot run already. Confirm must meet. ROFL
Great great great. Such a good boyfriend aye! :)
Huixian's coming back today! Gonna meet her & Kenneth later on I guess.
best best. :) I wanna go home today. Both my handphone no battery already luh. So best (Y)
Seriously bored recently. My daily routine is like "Wake up, eat, use computer,go out,come back early in the morning,sleep"
Becoming pig already. Soon will give birth to baby pig one -_-
Gonna end this post nowwwwwww. Anything text/call me ayes. Same old sentence. hahaha

2010-06-01T09:15:00.002+08:00

I've loved and lost so many times,
it makes me so tired.
Can I choose to give up,please?

It's 9.17am in the morning.
Boyfriend's sleeping now.
Listening to 品冠‘s 我以为 now.
Don't know why will my mood be affected everytime I listen to this song.
Oh well..........
Perhaps because of Boyfriend's actions recently...
Just feel that I'm not important to him already...
So afraid that soon he'll be walking out of my life when we've planned so much for our future...
Alright...me and my silly thinkings again...
We've been together for 11 days.. it's amazing how time pass so quickly..
in 21 more days it's our 1st month.. then it'll be his chalet..don't even know will we be able to last until then..
I better stop thinking before boyfriend sees this post and get angry ._.

Btw,Good morning all!:)

I need a job!

大笨猪，♥

2010-05-31T07:13:00.002+08:00

Back to hubby's house again.
When we're on our way back,both of us had a talk about our future.
Pretty interesting. Really hope all this will come true cause I'm really serious about what I've said to him.
Hopefully all this will not be just a dream :)
Finally hubby's best best best friend come back already aye.
Don't have to listen to him rant about how much he misses TianDe. Hahahaha :B
My little piggy boyfriend is sleeping now. Super adorable when he sleeps,♥
Gonna go have a stick and acc him already. Anything text or call aye!
&Simin,contact me as soon as you sees this. (:

Darling，
我知道最近我的脾气很不好。
让你觉得我好像随时会离开你，但是我可以答应你那一天不会来。
因为我发现我已经一天比一天的爱你了。
即使每天能够看得见你，当你不在我身旁时，我还是会想你。
有一件事情我很害怕。。。很害怕我太过依赖你。。
如果有一天你真的离开我，我该怎么办呢？
我知道我不该想那么多。。可是不说又会闷在心里面。。
我知道你已经向我担保你不会离开我。。可是我还是会害怕。
无论如何，我只在乎现在的我们。
我不会让任何一个人来破坏我们的感情。
谢谢你所做的一切一切，即使对其他人而言没什么大不了；
可使对我而言是我最大的安慰。♥
(22nd's♥) 我爱你，陈俊衔。 (:

2010-05-30T21:22:00.002+08:00

Finally clarified things with Boyfriendddddd (:
He's jealous that I keep viewing someone's profileeee. Hehehe.
K luh. Might be deleting my fb soon. So bf,dont need jealous already (Y)
At bf's house now. Gonna head to lot1 soon. I wanna eat longjohnsilver~~~~
Oh btw. Fuck all those rumors you guys heard.
It's up to you guys to decide.
If you choose to believe and wanna side those that you think is right.
Go ahead. Aint gonna give a fuck about it.
But if you go overboard. I can't promise that everything's gonna be fine stil :)

Enjoy your holidays~ :D

2010-05-29T08:08:00.003+08:00

Baby dearest,
This is gonna be a long long post. And also a sweet sweet post.
So sit back,relax& take your time to read alright? :)

Dearest hubby,
Thanks for always being there for me.
Thanks for always making sure I'm fine.
Thanks for always treating me as your priority.
Thanks for always being so caring towards me.
But at the same time,
I'm sorry for throwing my temper at you everytime.
I'm sorry for being such a dumb dumb for provoking you everytime.
I'm sorry that I seem like I don't really love you a lot.
I'm sorry for making you feel sad.
I'm sorry for being such a lousy girlfriend....
I really appreciate everything you've done for me.
It've been a very long time since my own boyfriend treated me this nice.
The way you make me feel when I'm with you it's something that others can't give.
Perhaps in your eyes I might be toying around with your feelings like other girls,
But darling,I can tell you. I'm not toying around with you.
This is for real. I love you for who you are. And nobody can change that fact.
Although to others' we might just started and we're still at our honey moon period.
But I do believe if we do really love each other,nothing is impossible.
Thank you for everything you've done for me. ;)

Darling,再苦我也要陪你渡過 ; 我愛你.♥

2010-05-28T20:53:00.002+08:00

Uploaded the pictures up on Facebook. :D
Sorry uhs. Super lazy to upload it to blog.
So day by day there'll be a picture up there. :D:D:D
bf's singing like a retard now (Y) YAYY.
Waiting for Kenneth and Huixian to come up to bf's house :D
Gonna head to teckwhye later on. Happy girl (Y)

I love Mr Tan Chun Xian! :D

2010-05-27T09:00:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not posting pictures recently~
That day when we went for fishing we did take pictures.
But it's in Boyfriend's hp. So bear with it. Needa wait for boyfriend to upload it. :/
Hmmmms~
Watching Inuyasha now (Y) Hehehehe. Cute half demon :):):)
went to Limbang just now to find Jason & co.
was expecting that bf will be awake but he's still sleeping. best ayes?
From yesterday morning sleep until now. and he's still sleeping.
Bth him. Super pig alright :/
Btw. If you can't reach me at 9105**** then I might be using another line.
My prepaid line. If you know that number then you might be able to find me.
But if you don't haveeee. That's too baddddddddddddddd. :B

Hahahaa. Alright,I'm offffff.

Anybody have jobs to intro?
I need to work ~
Parents' complaining already~

2010-05-25T03:37:00.002+08:00

Greatttttt.
I'm listening to Pitbull's Go girl and I thought of boyfriend ._.
The way he sing this song is like super cute can (Y)
Hmms..... didn't replied 3 of his message.
Even his night message I also didn't reply. :/z
Moodswing,bad timing aye. Hmms.
had not been feeling well recently.. sucks T_T
any idea how to cure headaches? :/
This few days had been staying at boyfriend's house. Besttttttttttt.
Now I'm back home and I can't get to sleep. More besttttttt.
How I wish bf's here to hug me to sleep :(~
Neverminddddd,hopefully we'll be able to meet later on when he's awake....
School later on.. Gonna try to sleep now.... :'(

All I ever wanted is you, (22nd's♥)

2010-05-23T13:38:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend's bathing nowwwww.
Gonna go fishing with them later on. :)
Super happy that I'm spending more time with baby recently.
Hehehehe. So far so good. Never even quarrel until. Best uh,bi:)
Hopefully this will continueee,no quarrels k!
Hmmmms,nothing to post alreadyyyy. If there's pictures I'll be updating it (Y) :)

Boyfriend,
Thank you for always being so thoughtful to me.
Thank you for always trying to give in to my attitude.
Thank you for always trying to put me as your priority.
Thank you for everything.
I've never thought we'll be together.
I've never thought you'll be mine.
I've never thought that you'll even ask me to be yours.
All this "I've never thought" really did come true.
I know I may not be the best girlfriend you ever had.
I know I may not have the prettiest face in the world.
I know I may not have the best attitude.
But with a heart that loves you I'm sure we'll overcome every obstacles.
Thank you for spending time with me.
Even tho you have me now I hope that you'll not neglect your friends okay?
If I can,I'll spend time with you and your friends.
Don't worry,I won't take you for granted.
Cause,You're one in a million.
I love you, (:

2010-05-23T00:58:00.003+08:00

Greatttttttttttt,
I'm at bf's house now.
And he's watching his show like nobody business -.-
I'm invisible (Y). Eat glass grow up one. :D
Not bad rightttttttttt. he say I'll ignore him.
in the end. is he ignore me lor. wtfttm~
show more important than me :(
forget itttttt. i go find games to play.
i also ignore him (Y) best ~~~
for the time being anything text me :)

Byeeee~

2010-05-22T13:33:00.002+08:00

I got the most cock boyfriend in the whole wide worldddddd,
But I still love him (Y) Hahahaha :D

2010-05-21T02:39:00.002+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,

my blog is going to be dead soon
readership going down like nobody's business.
Luckily I still got some loyal readers that still do read my blog.
Happy girl. Hahahaz.
Finally my cough is getting better. :)
So glad that I'm feeling better after so many weeks.
hopefully it'll go away soon. My voice had been sexy recently. Bth.
People hear already say I very man sial T_T
Nevermindzzzz. Thanks to some pig yesterday for accompanying me. Xiexieeeee.
Guess I ain't gonna MIA lot1 already. No pointtt. Somemore sometimes need go down thereee.
MIA = no use. HEHEHE :B
life's great with friends around youuuu.
But sometimes it's so much better to be aloneee.
Awww. Hahahahaz.
Talking to Kevin on msn nowww. But he's bathing ahh. wait for him bathe should be 3 years laterrr.
Gonna head to bed as soon as I finished my shows (Y)

Off to watch my cartoon network (Y)

在爱情里，没有谁对谁错。

2010-05-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

我。会。想。你。的。
再。见。了。

2010-05-16T21:04:00.002+08:00

I've made up my mind of letting everything go.
Even though it will still hurt. Even though I've to act as if everything's fine.
I will. Seeing you so happy,I know my decision is right.
I'll be gone from lot 1 for a period of time.
When I think that it's time to go back I will.
For now I just wanna make myself happy.
Believing,wishing,hoping.
Till the day I found someone that will make me believe in wishing again,i'll be gone.

supposedly..10 more days..

2010-05-15T19:45:00.002+08:00

Helloooo (Y)

Sorry for not posting this few days :)
Had been going out and coming back lateeeeeee.
No pictures to share recently as my phone's battery is lost.
I'm using spare phoneeeee. No camera no nothing :(
But better than nothing :D!
Oh btwwww,I'm fineeeeee. Don't worry~
Just having fever. Hehehe (Y)
Other than that...I'm feeling alright. :)
If you happen to be at lot1 come arcade find me okayyy.
Can accompany meeee. If not I'll be bored2death (N)
Anything text/call me k!:)

Not meant to be,

2010-05-14T16:03:00.000+08:00

might not be posting much already.
anything contact me okay (Y)

ohhhhh.and anyone wanna come take care of me tell me :(
cause my cough is getting worst. now im having fever :(

2010-05-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

gastric gone.
asthma's getting worse.
difficulty in breathing.
argh,hell.
gonna head to lot1 soon. :(

2010-05-12T07:40:00.001+08:00

Be prepared.
The new mxy :)

2010-05-11T05:41:00.003+08:00

handsome guy up for grabs! :)
hahaha. now at kang's house. gonna grab games from him!:)
thanks uh,kang!(Y) :)
i really hope life will get better nowadays.
was at gombak just now. but because of someone i asked ahlong to come over to fetch me back to cck.
:)so met kang and talk with him about games. (Y)
he's playing piano now. super naise :D
gonna end here already.......superrandom. but still it's a update right :D

sometimes i wish that our love can be perfect.
sometimes i wish that both of us can be that less stubborn.
sometimes i wish that both of us can compromise.
sometimes i wish that i can be less sensitive.
but nothing is perfect.
so i chose to love you for who you are.
for what you are when you're with me.
i love everything about you,including your imperfections.
even when you're hot n cold towards me.
i won't compare,compare you with my other ex(s).
cause you're unique in your own way. and that is why i fell in love with you.
you gave me reasons to carry on believing,
you gave me the hope to carry on wishing cause i know you'll try to fulfill it.
even tho i know one day all this is gonna end.
At least i once had you. I should be contented.
26th April 2010;Mr Barry Lee - You're my sweetest sin. :)

2010-05-08T17:54:00.002+08:00

Guys are jerks.
They never fail to make girls cry.
They never fail to break a girls' heart.
This morning is the most unforgettable morning for me.
You walked away from me.
So I will too.
Battery's lost. Good game for me isn't it?
Oh well.. those that knows my house phone or my house can come up to find me aye.
From today onwards in my life. There's no more 21st December.
I've let go. Moved on. No more him. :)
As for Barry.. let nature takes it's course..
if we're meant to be even if i let him do everything his own ways we'll always be together..
Thank you Yonghwee & Leon for being there with me to find my battery.
Asked me to stop finding when you know I don't look right anymore.
Sorry that I've troubled you guys to help me find my battery.
And also making myself have asthma when I know I can't do some things.....
No matter what.
Thankyou.....

Nobody will know how I feel right now.
Nobody will ever be my priority anymore.
I walk alone,stand alone,stay strong alone.

2010-05-04T02:32:00.002+08:00

thankyoubabyfortoday:)
hahahahahaha okay
nothing to post laaaaa.
wait until i take pictures with pple then post okah (Y)
i'll be positive already
no more negative.
make me cry more only.
dont want cry leh me. LOLOLOLOL
:B

english paper later on.
gonna sleep soon.:)
byeeeeeeee

iloveyou,barryleeeee.(:

2010-05-03T02:06:00.002+08:00

Bf,
It's the first week of us being together.
But it's not a pleasant week for us.
We quarreled.. for almost everyday.
and it's always me that started everything..
you're so hard to read.. some times i wonder do i really fail as your gf cause i can't read what you're thinking...
you chose to tell others' but not me..
you chose to be nice to other girls but not me..
maybe i'm not good enough.
i really dk what's good enough in your dictionary......
as i'm typing all this my tears started to flow....
just now.. i wanted to send you home..
but i decided to walk away cause i can't take it anymore..
i ran up the overhead bridge. i broke down... i cried so hard... but you weren't there..
i ask myself what should i do? where should i go? ended up.. i ran home...
not a message of comfort from you..
i decided to leave everyone's life..
i've got the feeling.. you're breaking up with me...
is it coming to an end i ask myself... the answer is yes?
you no longer assure me that you won't leave me. no longer being there for me just because i wanted a hug.
no longer calling me yours'.. i feel like a total stranger to you...

Please don't make me believe and dump me down here.
I'm not as strong as you think I am.

some times a hug or a kiss from you can really make me stop thinking this much...
but you've stopped doing that a few days ago....
26th is coming to an end?..

2010-05-02T22:09:00.000+08:00

anybody wanna find me
find me by my hosue phone.
if not leave a offline message
i'll be apeparing offline.
and will online only if i wanna.
thanks/

HAPPY (Y)

2010-05-02T15:11:00.002+08:00

HYPER (Y)

Thank you BAKS,Vivien,that someone,yingting,songning,nut,bernard,yiluan & EVERYONE LAAA CANNNN
For asking I'm alright or notttttt.
K RANDOM SHIT.
HEHEHEHEHEHE.
I want hyper now now now.
Cause I don't wanna be down down down.
IT RHYMES!
Going to lot1 later on I think.
ANYBODY WANNA COME FIND ME.
LAI LAI LAI. I'm FREEEEEE.
K LA. HYPER CAN ROFL
but still headache (N)
YAY TOMORROW NO SCHOOL.
TUESDAY CAN SEE KENNY AND CO LE! :D
Miss miss miss miss them
Miss jenny tooo. HEHEHEHE :P

alright. random post.
BYEBYEEBYBEYBEYE :)

Everyone be happy leh~ :)

I'll never be the best.
Never ever.

2010-05-02T01:56:00.002+08:00

I'm sick and tired of all this I swear.
Nobody truly loves me.
And I'll never find someone that does.
Fuck my life.
Fuck everything that's happening.
What's the point of putting up a strong front when I'm not at all.
What's the point of living when my fucking body is fucking weak.
I WISH. I REALLY WISH TO HAVE SOMEONE HERE WITH ME NOW.
I REALLY DON'T WANNA SPEND MY NIGHT TODAY ALONE.
I FEEL SO TERRIBLE :(

Take it as it's all my fault.
Take it as I'm nothing but a big failure.
Take it as I'm just a nobody.
Take it as I'm a failure.
Blame it all on me.
I'll take it.

Wishes doesn't come true anymore.
Cause nobody's there to fulfill it..

26th ♥

2010-04-29T02:53:00.002+08:00

Photos above is what I've burnt on that day when Sis and Soulmate wanted me to burn ;)
They told me to not leave any thing that's about him in my house.
So.. I did what they told me to.. Tore the pages of words,burn it all up.

All the best to you,21st. You were once someone that's part of my life.
And now that I've burnt all the pages away what's left with us are just memories in our heart.
Good luck for later. Hopefully it'll only be reporting and nothing else..

(Y) Two pictures of myself and one picture of me and bb's hand.
nah. that's not my bf's hand ;x
only bf & me know whose hand is that uh. hehehe.
don't bother asking -_- i won't tell. nani nani boo boo :p
This few days had been meeting up with bf♥ and bb! :)
hope everything's alright for bb!
and thank you bf♥ for skipping lessons to come and accompany me.
but i ignored you. glad that we're still together {:
tho you skipped lessons just because you didn't want to attend too but you did came down to accompany me!
And that's all that matters :}
Left lot1 early today. Reached home thought I can straight go to bed. But I didn't.
Instead,i'm still up. And it's 3.19am Suckstobeme. :/
Alright~ Shall end this post with me and bf♥ pictures (L)

Dearest bf♥.
I apologize for ignoring you every time when I mood swing.
I know I've crossed your limits for quite a lot of times.
But every time you'll still be here for me,assuring me that you'll never leave me.
I know many don't think that we could last.
But we'll prove to them,prove to ourselves that we will. Right?
I'm thankful for everything you've done for me.
Today's the 3rd day we're together and I want you to know that you're the best.
And I'll always be yours'.
Wishes will come true because I have you ♥
I love you,always. {:

;没有谁对不起谁，只有谁不会珍惜谁

2010-04-28T14:45:00.002+08:00

find me if you can.
but if you can't. that's too bad.

off to make myself feel better..

2010-04-28T14:34:00.001+08:00

i fail as a girlfriend as a friend as a daughter.
failure is what i am.
i hate myself for being insecure all the time.
guess i'm the worse girlfriend/friend/daughter in the whole wide world.

I'm sorry.

2010-04-27T00:59:00.000+08:00

Wishes do come true (:

i love you,silly (:

2010-04-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

"Oftentimes we say goodbye
to the person we love without wanting to.
Though that doesn’t mean that we've
stopped loving them or
we've stopped to care.
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way
to say I love you."

Oh well. Days were spent with Barry recently.
Yesterday and today went to find him.
And also met my baobei and Cindy,. hehehehe
Baobei must takecare k. I won't reveal who is my baobei oneee. so don't ask :P
Very tired recently... NEED MOTIVATION TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL :(
Argh sucks. Forget it. I go emo one corner first :/

I wished you were more than just a friend to me.

2010-04-21T16:18:00.002+08:00

BOY OH BOY!
I'm super high now. Rofl
Like on drugs. But no no no. I'm not on drugs! :)
Just feel super blessed to have silly to text me all this while.
Hehehehehe. Though I just met you yesterday.
Though I just got to know you. But silly. You're super sweet :D
still thinking should i head over to amk to meet curry and pt not.
MISS THEM SUPER MUCH! :( i know curry miss me too right.
CURRY. ROFL. SO RANDOM UH MEEEEE.
No choice. Super high as my bro's computer can blast music. :B
Repeating Justin Bieber's song for dont know how many times. HEHEHE :P
GUYS! ASK ME OUT OKAY. I'll meet your if I'm not lazy. :D
TAG MORE LEHHH.
all view and run. slap you guys man :X

Me plus you, ;)

2010-04-21T05:25:00.002+08:00

Guys.
It's officially over.
We've bid goodbye to each other.
I know I've done my best.
None of my friends had seen me putting so much effort in it before.
But now it's really over.
I don't wanna be the silly old me anymore.
I want to be more than just a girl.
He changed me. From top to toe.
He gave me,confidence I never had.
And forever he'll live in my heart.
Memories will be left behind to let me think about him occasionally.
His images blurring from my mind.
I've woke up from this beautiful dream I've made for myself.
He too will one day realize how much he had changed me.
I'm thankful you know. Cause I've never thought I'll put in so much effort in doing some thing.
I'm free now.
Free from him. Free from everything he left for me to pick up.
If you ask me did I ever regretted.
I'll gladly say,No. He taught me things I've never thought I'll learn.
For now. I wish the best for him. Even if he got a new girlfriend.
Please don't blame him. It's OUR fault. Never once was it only his fault.
If it's a must. Blame it on me.

Thanks a lot for supporting me all this while.
It's time to wake up from this beautiful dream.
Let memories be our witness for our love.
21st December 2009 - 07th April 2010. Love had never felt so great if I've never met you.

I'll post regularly from now onwards.
Tag more. I'm not dead yet :)

2010-04-19T11:43:00.003+08:00

I'M CALLING OUT TO ANY ONE OF YOUR.
PLEASE HELP ME.
IF YOUR HOUSE HAVE THIS KIND OF CANDLES PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
OR YOU KNOW WHERE TO BUY IT PLEASE TELL ME.
I KNOW ONE IS AT IKEA. SO IF ANYONE OF YOUR IS FREE.
I WANNA KNOW CAN YOUR BRING ME TO IKEA?!
CAUSE I NEEDA DO SOMETHING ON WEDNESDAY 2A.M
SO IT'S SUPER URGENT. PLEASE HELP ME :'(

2010-04-16T12:15:00.001+08:00

Private blog's up.
Link is in my profile. Btw.
YOu wont get to go in unless you're him ;)

The 7th Day.

2010-04-14T08:47:00.002+08:00

4thmonthsary's gift.

such a mess..... gonna redo it soon.......within a week.

guysssss,im fine aye! :)

the seventh day without you,

2010-04-14T03:29:00.003+08:00

Here to say,
I'll stop posting for a period of time.
Sorry Sm and sis. I didn't meet you guys today.
For the time being I wanna be alone.
Actually. Nobody cares too.
But just wanna inform you guys.
That's all.

Thanks for being there for me.
1 more week to 21st.
supposedly our 4th monthsary.
ohwell...

Find me if you can.
But if you can't.
That's too bad ;)

2010-04-13T04:37:00.003+08:00

Yo allllllllllllllllll,
Here to post again! :)
Didn't manage to accompany Akira to work today.
And when I meet him at night he keep talking about it. And he ignored me! wtfishzzzzz.
walked off from his car as I feel moodless. Called up Bro. Ask him to help me buy cig.
Slack with him till 10pm. Went home. Burnt my hand while doing things.
It's swollen now ._. having difficulties in typing messages and updating.
But it's alright. Sacrifice the pain a bit and post :D
Heading to school later on~ Happy girl is me ^^
Last night went to meet Soulmate. Walked over to Teckwhye CC.
Saw Michelle. Smiled to her. But I guess I was super unfriendly. (Not intentionally was so tired ._.)
Met Soulmate. Went back to Cck. Texted Nicholas and he asked me to cab over to Ten mile so me and Soulmate went to take cab.
Drop soulmate at Phoenix Station and went to ten mile lan. Hoho :B
Raymond and co. was there. Raymond become super dao lo. :/
But he become fatter already. Hehehehehe. Texted Diva and asked him to come down to accompany me but he didn't..
Went over to Ten mile junction at 6.30 to buy cig. Waited for them to open the shop. Finally bought cig and went back :D
Daddy came to fetch me at 7.30. Went home,watch tv. Straight toh on bed. LOL.
Sorry uh Akira =x

Oh btw,I'm quite fine now.
So don't worry yeas. :)
Do ask me out. I'm bored to be at home~
Anyone wanna go swimming this Sunday? :)
I shall end nowwww. Buaizzzzz.

"I'll leave everything to fate.
What's meant to be yours' will always be yours' even if it's gone for a while.
Let nature takes its' course..

2010-04-12T01:44:00.002+08:00

Yoyoyoyoyo.
Walao. I don't post your wont tag me asking me to post one meh? :(
All like don't view my blog onezzzzz.
K I shall post a nong nong post okiez? LOL

Woke up at 3plus today.
Lincoln called me. Then went to prepare. After preparing went to find them.
Fcking long uhs. Wait for everybody to gatherzzzz.
Then Akira bring us go swimming :D
I nearly drown for dk how many times.
I seriously hate waterx109203850896. LOLOLROFL
Akira bought us to eat Gong bao. Then off to cck to take moneyz.
Went over to Ave5 after thatttt. Left at 12.30. Akira send me back homeeeee.
Fucking akira so laolannnn. LOLOL =X
Kkkkkkkk.

Idk what to post la can :(
I'll post pictures as soon as i get my lappie back :)
Btw,thanks for everyone's concern. I'm fine. Love you guys :)

OHYA. today..... i met a new friend call SUMO! Hi sumo. i'm chubby :D!

That's all,baiiiz/

"I'm falling for you. Do you know? Can you see?

2010-04-09T05:30:00.005+08:00

If you're an Angel send from Heaven to Earth.
Can I ask God not to take you away from my life?
Can I pray to keep you with me?

I miss...you...

Sorry,blog post edited. This the unedited post will be up on my private blog as soon as i have time to create one. thankyouz:)

Let it all end baby ;)

2010-04-09T03:12:00.002+08:00

YO ALL!
I'm in a good mood today!
Cause I enjoyed myself with Yong & co.
Stupid sia Akira. Fuck hor you!! Curse you :P
Might be going down with them to jiatoh later on at night. Hehehe.
I should be back on track soon. Nothing can defeat Mxy! :D
Rightieeeeeeeez? :) Oh yaaaaa!!! Lim Guan Ping & Geraldineeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzz.
Call me up and go out soon. Wanna see your soon soon~ :D
Thanks all for picking me up in my darkest point.
You know I'll never want to give up if you guys wasn't there to guide me thru everything.
And now. After 21st. I passed him what I wanna pass. And do what I should had do on our 3rd month.
I'll be gone from his life. Permanently. Promise you guys I'll not dwell in the past anymore.
I know nobody wanna see me like this. So I'll not fail you guys. Instead,I'll do what I should do.
And it's letting go and living my life much more better ;D
Tho! Till now it still stings a little bit. But..I know I have friends there yeaaaa.
Can't thank you guys enough. ;)!

I want you to know,
For whatever I've done in the past.
I'm SORRY.
Remember,
I'll still miss you every now and then.
But for now..
Take care of yourself,
Without you,Without me.
We'll be better ;)
21st December - 7th April ♥

"And now you're my one love,one heart,one life.
(♥) 现在很想见你。很想打电话给你~

2010-04-08T03:38:00.005+08:00

First up! Nicholas!
I wanna make it clear uhs! The pictures I never put in order one.
Dk why arrange him first. So all don't angry! :)
Mushroom head! :)
Tho we know each other only last year December only(?)
And we're not close. But when I fb chat you,you immediately replied and was concern about what happened. Thank you! Really! :)
Tho most of the time you're annoying but you know what!
You're a great guy! :)
And know what! You're super dumb to be kicked out by school ok!
If not we'll be best friends since I came into Fajar.
CONFIRM ONE! LOL. Anyway,you're gonna be discharge soon.
Please be a good boy and stay out of trouble yea? :O
Up nextttttt,
Mr Dominic Yeo!
You this big brother of mine!
Please take good care of your health.
Thanks for trying to stay by me when I needed someone.
Cherish your girlfriend. But remember what I said.
I want you to be happy too! Better last long yea?
Don't get into trouble too. :)

YOYOYOYOYO EMOLICIOUS JIEJIE :D
We've known each other... amazingly.... 2 years going 3 years?
It's amazing how I met you through Js!
Well... this few years we've been on and off.
Closed and drifted off. But do you know how glad we've never argued even tho something happened in the recent year.
To see you so happy with Johnson,I'm glad you've met the right guy that will give you everything you want. :)
You. please takecare of your health.
As you know both of us have asthma. We can't overdo things.
Know your limits alright? And also I'll not overdo too la =P
But I know you'll always be here right? :)
Love you,(:

AND YOU!
LIMGUANPING!
My dearest Soulmate + tudi.
Last year. I dedicated a post for you.
This year. Yet another one. :)
Gr8 isn't it? Well....
Like Geraldine,we've been on and off!
But still I cherish this friendship with you.
I'm sure I'll never regretted knowing you.
And sure that I'll never forget the nights you spend with me hearing me talking my heart out.
And the times when you lend me your ears to hear me cry.
Remember what I said before?
Now I might be the one who is letting you hear me cry.
But there'll sure be a time you'll be the one dialing me up and let me hear you cry.
But nonono! You've not called and cried. But it was me! :b
Tho I can't confide as much things to you last time.
But still. I hope our friendship will stay strong. Cause you're one a don't wanna lose. NEVER EVER! :)
Anyboo,i love you ;)

AND TO US.
The trios that was once always together at night!
I miss those days you know..
It's sad to know that i've drifted so far away from you guys.
I really wish one day three of us will go out and get wild soon.
Gossiping 'bout that someone we always laugh at.
I'm sure someday we'll gather again and have our day spend together soon!
Thanks for taking care of me when I needed someone.
backing me up whenever I need you guys.
LASTLY! I MISS YOU 2! :(

AND! To sotong :b
don't ask me why no photo cause i never find until one of your photos -.-
So. you this small little kid. Always talk back to me when I'm talking to you.
Think you're a boy you big fuck yeas? No way no no no way!
But still. Thanks for this year.. You ran down to Senja Grand just because I cried on the phone.
You threw your red packet money in your dad's face and ran out to find me cause I played missing with you guys.
Assure me you'll always be there to lend me a ear just so I'll not be lonely.
Always getting so worried just because I do stuffs that's stupid.
Always giving in when I do stunts and it's my fault =x
But you know what?
I cherish you my dearest sotong :)
So take it as I beg you. Don't do stunts and get into Boys town.
If not I go school who entertain me? =x
Do understand I'll worried too yea. ;)
xoxo.

LASTLY TO BANGKIT 213 PEOPLE!
Idk will you guys see this or not.
But I just wanna thank your for being so friendly to me! :)
You guys brought a smile to my life. And I'm grateful for that.
Minyang,Ahkim,Hongsheng,weeteck & few more.
THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH! xo ;)

"Even though I'm a sucker for love.
But boy Imma tell you one time,boy i love you i love you.

Your world is my world,your fight is my fight. ;')

Love me love me~

2010-04-08T03:25:00.002+08:00

Love me - Justin Bieber ~

oh oh its jb
My friends say I'm a fool to think
that you're the one for me
I guess I'm just a sucker for love
'Cuz honestly the truth is that
you know I'm never leavin'
'Cuz you're my angel sent from above

Baby you can do no wrong
My money is yours
Give you little more because I love ya,
love ya
With me, girl, is where you belong
Just stay right here
I promise my dear I'll put nothin above ya
above ya

Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
Kiss me, Kiss me
Say that you miss me
Tell me what I wanna hear
Tell me you love me

Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
Kiss me, Kiss me
Say that you miss me
Tell me what I wanna hear
tell me u love me

People try to tell me
but I still refuse to listen
'Cuz they don't get to spend time with you
A minute with you is worth more than
a thousand days without your love,
oh your love
oh

Baby you can do no wrong
My money is yours
Give you little more because I love ya
love ya
With me, girl, is where you belong
Just stay right here
I promise my dear I'll put nothin above ya
above ya

Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
kiss me , kiss me
say that u miss me
tell me what i wanna hear
tell me you love me.

Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
kiss me , kiss me
say that u miss me
tell me what i wanna hear
tell me you love me.

My heart is blind but I don't care
'Cuz when I'm with you everything has disappeared
And every time I hold you near
I never wanna let you go,
oh

Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
kiss me , kiss me
say that u miss me
tell me what i wanna hear
tell me you love me.

Love me, Love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, Fool me
Oh how you do me
kiss me , kiss me
say that u miss me
tell me what i wanna hear
tell me you love me.

Why can't time pass faster!
Cause I'm dead bored. Booyaw!
I really can't wait to spend my day late with Nic and Jack y'know!
Two big jokers to make me happy! :)
Don't misunderstood yea. I'm single! Single yes yes. Unavailable.
Muahahahahhaahaha. Don't worry yeaaaaaaaa. I'll eventually be fine cause Ms Geraldine assured that with her and Mr Guanping I'll be fine again!
And being fine is MXY's spirit! ~right guanping :P
Yes yes yes. I thought this will last. But you know. Forcing will only hurt me more.
Feigning ignorance is much more worse! Soooooooooooooo.
Face it. Face itttttttttttttt. He's coming back or not? Time will prove. Know why?
Time will show how much I've placed in this relationship :)
For nowwwwwwww. I wanna concentrate on my friends.
I'm not gonna neglect them anymore. Promise!!!!!~ Even if I got over him and got a new bf.
I'LL STILL NEVER GONNA NEGLECT YOU GUYS AGAIN! :)
Cause when you're in trouble when you're feeling down and upset. True friends will come by and pick you up.~right geraldineeeee,guanping,Nic&Dominic~ hahahahaha :P
SO HI. BRAND NEW MXY UP SOON! Stay tune! :)

And to 2A2. Feelings for this class is gradually growing. Thanks for being so friendly to me!
Promise you guys I'll promote together with your yea? Thanks so much for making me feel so in place.
Love you guys x589461649416146445times! :)

"Come to your senses soon. Still worried. But I'll let you do it your way.

"Love is not all about saying. It's about proving it with actions.

2010-04-07T14:15:00.000+08:00

He broke up with me.
Bye.

2010-04-03T03:41:00.002+08:00

OH HIIIIIIIIIII.
Some pathetic little losers tagged my blog. Wowowowowow.
How long since I last had my blog spammed? The tags made me laughed real hard y'know!
When did I say I'm white? If I'm white will anyone mistaken me for a malay?! WTFOOKz.
Why nowadays the spammers no brains one ar? :O
So passer, this is for you _l_ YAY! Happy? :D
In 12 more hrs I'm leaving Singapore~ Weeeee.
Can take time off here already! Back on Monday I guess? :)
Lazy to schedule any post so bear with it till I'm back alright! :)
Shall go and watch my show already! :D

2010-03-31T04:50:00.002+08:00

Hello allllll.
I'm so tired now. But i need to survive till later onz.
I finally cut my hair alr! Yayez.
And also went to do my Atm card already!
Super muacks to mummy for paying for everything recentlyyyyyy.
But I've second thoughts after I cut my hair short yknowwwww.
I feel like putting my extensions back. Tsk tsk. ._____.
Maybe I should go and rest awhile.........
Oh anyway... i might be going to the police station later on in the afternoon.
Since I've been threatened by the same guy over and over again.
And yet he doesn't feel remorseful about it. Wow.
But still I'm hesitating about reporting it to the Police. Cause it'll make it big. hmms....
oh well. that doesnt really matter right? =O
Btw. I'm not working at Bugis anymore. And the staffs over there stopped contacting me.
I'm afraid about them running away with my pay. ROFL.
Cause they say they'll call me few days ago. But up till now,nobody called...
worried. should i call them? Hmms.....
so many things had happened recently....
Glad that I'm gonna have a break in Malaysia this weekend...
Meaning I won't be updating this blog for 3 days. Since this blog is already dead.
And nobody comes to this blog alr. So I guess it's alright? :B
Hahahaha. Alright. Im ending this post alr. Gooooodbyeeeeeee my dearest readers. :D

2010-03-23T17:53:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry for the lack of updates.
I'm currently working. If you're going for shopping at bugis give me a text. :D
Come to my shop and take a look okah. :D!
For this period just text me if you need anything. Thankyou.
BuaiZzzzzzzzzzzz

2010-03-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

So yesterday went out with Bf,Kevin,Raymond,Weizheng,Jiajun,Chinfu(?),Lester and I forgot who o.o
Managed to sleep for 2 hrs that day. But bf didn't sleep at all. ROFL.
Met up with them at Petir LRT 8am.
They ate their breakfast while me and bf went to hunt for Kinder bueno for Kevin. :B
Waited for them to finish up and charlton to come. Wee.
Finally Charlton came. Waited for bus and got up :B
There was this stupid auntie that pushed me till my bag dropped! Damn her seriously!
Didn't even say excuse me for goodness sake! :/!
Reached Harbour Front and bought tickets to Sentosa :D
Didn't know where to head to. Walked to Palawan Beach. In the end took the train back to where we alighted from the bus and walked to Siloso Beach.
Turning in circles o_o! Finally got changed! Went down to the sea to play :D
I stopped playing when some jelly fish stung me.. Suspect that is jelly fish.. Cause got marks :/
Pain like wtf!!! :( Sat around for a while then head off to wash up. Feel super glad to be clean!
Saw Szepei and co. there too! :) Super shock to see them. Haha.
Finally at 1pm plus I asked them to go wash up as they say they wanted to come up at 1pm.
Lateeee. Boys are always LATE! :B Soon,Clement joined us :o.
Those that's going to eat is going over to Vivo and get the cake to.
Those that's not eating is staying at Sentosaaaaa.
So me,bf,Charlton,Chinfu,Raymond stayed at Sentosa.
Me and Raymond ask them to pack food back. Clement ask us to proceed to Water front first.
So we went over there. Walk pass a hotel. Got Lamborgini outside. Raymond and Charlton went crazy over it o_o
Finally reached Water Front. Sat for a while and rain came -_-
Walk to a shelter near The Universal Studio. And they called!
Proceed over to Hard Rock Hotel. Sat at the Hotel cafe?
Ordered drinks and was told that we could not cut cake there.
But somehow the adults helped us :B So we managed to cut the cake there!
After the cutting and eating session. We proceeded to the pool!
Wanted to swim but time wasn't on our side as some of them can't stay out late.
So we left at 6.15. Took bus 188 back to cck. Kevin,bf and weizheng pierced their ear bone?!
Tempted to pierce. But didn't :)! Went off soon after.
Ohmy.. lazy to type anymore. So... enjoy the pictures! Not much. But at least some? :B
View and tag please! Don't run :B

(yesyesyes! i pierced back my tongue. ROFL)

(Raymond and bf have the same color sex band o.o didn't wear it out on purpose tho!)

(why they like shy only ._.)

(only girl. So the only one camwhoring :B)

(The only picture of them playing in the water. LOLZZZZ)

The End! ;)
Lastly,Happy Birthday To YOU,
KEVIN NG!
Finally 15! Hope you've enjoyed your day yesterday ;)
One year older.one year closer to death ;)

2010-03-14T00:13:00.002+08:00

Helloooo all :)
Sorry for not updating recently. :B
Did not attend camp. So used the time to go make my IC at ICA building.
Finally done! left with ATM card ;)
tomorrow heading to Sentosa with Bf,kevin and co. :o
Celebrate Kevin's birthday :B! A lot of March Babies uhs! :o
Finally Holidays are here.. Enjoy enjoy. After holidays going back to school already :B
Daddy just talked to me about my studies.. oh well...
My mummy still can joke about it o_o like wow.
Forget it! Don't think so much can already :B
That's allllll. Think I'll be taking pictures tomorrowwww. So.. wait for my post :B

And click on my nuffnangggggggggg pl0x. :D

2010-03-08T17:38:00.000+08:00

Didn't attend camp. ._. sad life.
anything contact me ehs ._..

2010-03-06T23:53:00.001+08:00

Helloo allllll.
Camp's cominggggg.
Super excited :)
Piercing my tongue tomorrow.
Swimming tomorrow! Super loves! :)
Talking to trustee now. ;) Gonna go concentrate on her ^^
Byeeeeeeee!

Glad to have you as mine,Baks. ;)

2010-03-05T03:53:00.002+08:00

Dearest bf,
This is dedicated to you. ;)
I know recently we've been on and off.
And that caused a lot of things to happen. Like quarrels and small tiffs.
But end up we're still alright. And why is it so? Cause both of us isn't ready to let go yet.
I might be hard on words that I've said to you. But deep down I'm as fragile as a glass.
I don't like it when you're down too. Like what you've said before. If I'm happy. You're too.
And yes,if you're happy. I am too. I do not like it when you're down.
When you're keeping stuffs to yourself. I might be angry after reading things that you've wrote on impulse.
But ended up,I'll still be there for you. You do not need to comfort me like how others' do.
Cause ever since 21st December,you've been my greatest comfort.
The biggest gift I've received from God.
None can promise that they will not hurt you,but one can promise that they'll love you wholeheartedly.
No one can make me feel the same way I feel when I'm with you. Cause you're special and unique in your own way.
That is why I fell for you. The way you care is different. The way you express yourself is different too.
Tho I do not like it when I can't talk to you on phone,I know I must understand you're one shy guy.
It's not a bad point.. But somehow a good point? Cause that's what makes you cute. ;)
I'm not good at words too. and worse,I'm not good at expressing myself..
So I really hope you'll understand that even if I say things that's hard on you.
It's intentionally. But.. on impulse too :)
The main point is, Benedict Ang ke Sheng, I love you for who you are.
And I'll always do. Till the day you've given up. ;)

你是上天赐给我的奇迹。
莫鑫钰♥翁可昇。

2010-03-05T01:17:00.002+08:00

Hello allllll.
I'm like downloading my private server now, Happy girl on the run!
I met baby today, Was supposed to do IC today but I didn't. cause didnt attend school
Im gonna call the person tomorrow and register. ;)
If not later get charged by them. TSK. LOL :p
Meeting baby tomorrow too. :) Hopefully can stay at his house since I'm going to camp soon.
Aww aww aww :/ Ohya,met C today. pictures at his blog :D www.sixfeetunderthestars.onsugar.com :D
hehehe. alright,im off to talk to beibi ;)

"Never ever,

2010-03-04T08:14:00.001+08:00

:D smiley spamsssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
jiayou mxy. :) even if he doesn't need you anymore you also need to be happy at all times!
you can do it one. he's not here then u still have urself yea. :)
要加油哦，莫鑫钰。

翁可昇，还是很爱你（：

2010-03-04T04:25:00.002+08:00

HELLOOO ALLLLL.
just ate my dinner. wowowowowow.
time check,4.25am.
gonna head to school later on as i need to do my IC :l
anyway!
I attended school yesterday ;)
Quite alright I guess. But I fell down. wow. amazing. LOL!!!
Skipped a lesson only. Quite not me ehs. but still,i slept in class.
:/ LOL. cannot blame me la can :B
Anyway,went out with Js on Tuesday.
He brought me to shopping! :) Was supposed to shop at Orchard there oneee.
But I say too ex. I dont like so we headed to Bugis :)
Bought my things and spent his money until 60 plus lo. Burn one hole in his pocket :x
Bought a new heels. Happy girl ish me x10000000000000. :)
Dk should I be late today or on time... if not detention again. very bored of detention alr =/
slept when servin detention!!! I want my 8-12 la mrsng:( LOL
k luhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I go smokeeee alrrrrrr.
Anyway! I'm going to camp on the 8th and coming back at the 11th. :)
So sorry if I don't update my blog! Might be scheduling some post ;)
Can't wait for Friday to comeeeeeee. ;)

"Love like you've never been hurt before.

2010-03-03T05:35:00.001+08:00

FUCK YOU LA FUCKING BABY.
FUNNY MEH LIKE THAT?
CB. I CRIED ON THE PHONE!!!
I CRY BABY CUTE MAH. GOT PPLE SAYANG HOR!
LIKE YOU LO. YOU SAYANG ME MAH :D
BU SHI MEH? KNN. YOU DONT KPKB!!!!!
I SURE CUT YOUR BALLAS. NBCB!@!!!!
LOLOLOOOLOLOL.
I THOUGHT YOU CAUGHT THE BALLS THE MOMENT YOU SAW THE MESSAGE YOU THIS CBKIA.
IN THE END YOU DIDNT.
NOW YOU SEE LIAO HOR.
KNN. KNOW LIAO HOR.
I SEE YOU STILL WANT PLAY NOW.
I LET YOUR BALLAS FALL!!!!

K LA CB BABY.
I LOVE YOU FUCKING MUCH!

2010-03-03T05:26:00.000+08:00

CRY CRY CRY.
KNN.
XINYU ALL YOU KNOW IS CRY IS IT?
FUCK LA. YOU SEE LA. CB
YOUR BOYFRIEND NOT HAPPY YOU CRY LO.
DELETE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOUR LO.
TOTALLY GONE ALREADY LO.
WTF. SERIOUSLY. XINYU,YOU CAN GO DIE ALREADY LA.
DIE BETTER MAH. CB. MAKE PPLE NO MOOD.
YOU BLOCK EAR BIG FUCK MEH?! CB.

2010-03-03T04:54:00.002+08:00

It's my fault for loving you.
My fault for meeting you.
My fault for making you mine.
Now here I am,apologizing to you.
I'M SORRY.
I promise you,I'll be gone as soon as I see you on this Friday.
You'll never hear a news about me,anymore.
Be happy.. Be cheerful.. Be glad......
BenedictAngKeSheng,No matter what happens. I just wanna let you know.
i love you..

Goodbye...

2010-03-03T04:44:00.003+08:00

FUCK MY BLOODY LIFE FOR TELLING YOU HOW I FELT.
FUCK MY BLOODY LIFE FOR JUST SENDING YOU A MESSAGE WITH A JOKE INSIDE.
FUCK MY BLOODY LIFE FOR YOUR HEADACHES.
FUCK MY BLOODY LIFE FOR EVERYTHING.
FOR EVERYTHING I'VE EVER DONE.
FOR EVERYTHING I'VE EVER SAID!

DID YOU KNOW ALL I WANT YOU TO TELL ME NOW IS YOU SAYING "I LOVE YOU"
WAS IT DIFFICULT?! NO. FUCKING NO.
EVEN WHEN WE'RE LIKE QUARRELING I SAID A FUCKING "I LOVE YOU" TO YOU.
BUT YOU JUST GAVE MORE WORDS CAUSING MORE TEARS TO FALL.

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA I DON'T LIKE CRYING AT ALL?!
AND ALSO. NOT ONLY YOU HAVE HEADACHES.
ONE OF MY FUCKING EARS IS BLOCKED SINCE MY BIRTHDAY.
AND ALSO SINCE MY BIRTHDAY I'VE BEEN HAVING HEADACHES TOO.
WOW!!!! SERIOUSLY. DID YOU ASKED HOW IS MY EAR?
IS IT STILL BLOCKED YET?! BUT NO!!!!!!!! YOU MAPLED.
YOU DOTA-ED. WOW!!!! WHAT MORE YOU WANT ME TO SAY?!
WHAT MORE YOU WANT ME TO DO?! DID I COMPLAIN NOW WHEN YOU'RE GAMING?!
DID I?! ALL I WISHED FOR WAS A SIMPLE TEXT FROM YOU EVERYDAY.
EVEN A NORMAL GOOD MORNING OR SO CAN BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY.
DO YOU KNOW?!

IT'S SUCH A SMALL DEMAND.. IT DOESNT HURT YOU SAYING OR DOING ALL THIS.
SERIOUSLY. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW...

I JUST KNOW,I'M FUCKING IN LOVE WITH YOU.

:'(

2010-03-03T04:10:00.002+08:00

How can this be happening when we started off so sweet.
Now everything's crashing down. I feel you leaving me..
It hurts so badly and nobody's here to listen to me..
I cried once again..... It's not the first time i cried for you..
And I'm sure.. it'll not be the last...
I really wish when I'm awake.. everything will return back to normal....
I'm leaving for camp next week... I'm gonna be busy after my camp...
Will you miss my presence? ..

I miss you so badly..

2010-03-01T18:46:00.003+08:00

Hello all :)
Here to blog about my day! :)

Early in the morning woke mummy up.
Prepared and went out to meet Mummy's friend.
Breakfast at 302. After breakfast went over to take train :B
Train over to Toa Payoh then bus to Baslestier.
I swear I got the shock of my life over there. Freaking freaked out!
Luckily I was texting Brother and Sotong. If not sure die o_o
After mummy settled everything,bus over to Lavender.
Waited to collect my passport. 95 person lo. Freaking long.
Luckily I bought book to read. :) Mummy fell asleep tho :)
The counter was super funny and friendly (Y)
After collecting my passport train over to Bugis!
Shopping with mummy! And she bought me a new earpiece. ;)
Bought quite an amount of clothes. Supar happy!
Bus back to Panjang with mummy. Met up with Brother cause he promised to accompany me go find teacher :)
Passed the form to teacher,slack with Sotong they all until 4 plus.
Went off with QAD. H2h talks with him.. Know alot about him through our talks ;)
He accompany me to wait for bus. Bus came and he went off ^^v
And now I'm back home.. Still thinking whether to go accompany mummy to RC not...
She's going there for Karokae session. @_@ OH wellllll....

why did i call you today?
i need to keep to my promises.
2weeks 6days more....

2010-03-01T06:21:00.001+08:00

OH YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA,
Tag me to be linked! Love you guys,xo

2010-03-01T01:27:00.002+08:00

I hate my life now. I'll be gone soon....

2010-02-28T20:33:00.005+08:00

Hey all,

Prepaid going low.
Gonna start M.i.a-ing some people.
Sorry if I start to ignore you or so.
I need time to cool myself down nowadays.
Will be collecting my passport tomorrow morning.
Afternoon heading back to school to pass my form.
After that I've free. So anyone wanna come out do find me ;')
Other than all this,I guess I should end now.

Oh.. and thank you Jinghong,for buying such a big pig as my birthday present ;)

"I've lost my courage to love,

2010-02-28T05:02:00.002+08:00

Will you be there to wipe my tears when it's falling,
Will you be there to stand by me when everything's falling apart,
Will you be there to protect me at all cost,
Will you be there to be my only pillar of support?

I told you just now,I won't be contacting you nor meeting you till our third monthsary.
I know this is cruel.. I don't even think I can do it. But somehow my heart wants me to do it.
You do know that March is gonna be a very busy month for me.
I've been trying to fork out time for both of us to be together.
But you've been busy doing your own stuffs..
I do not know how long can I take all this.
But I know I must be strong for this period..
Cause you're not there to give me a hug anymore.

You do know that I still do love you.
You do know that I'm not good at controlling my temper.
You do know that I'm a weakling when it all comes to love.

but do you know that I love you too much to let you go?

2010-02-24T03:05:00.002+08:00

Can anyone promise me they'll protect me,
At all times? ....

2010-02-24T00:07:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!

This year's wishes very less leh.
flood me with wishes. HAHAHA.
k,i'm celebrating my birthday tomorrow after school.
anybody want come,TEXT ME! :D

i'll never abnegate on you.

2010-02-23T05:44:00.002+08:00

Fate is gone.
She's dead.
She's gone.
She's never coming back.
Torn and tattered.
She's ending all this shits.
She's throwing her phone away.
Nobody's gonna find her anymore.
She won't let anyone have the chance to contact her anymore.
23 February 2010 0545hrs;
Nobody can heal this broken heart.

who still remember my birthday.
my god damned birthday.
who still remember who is mxy?
NONE.

Happy 2nd!

2010-02-21T04:50:00.002+08:00

Baby..
It's our second month today!
Tho we're gonna spend it like a normal day.
But dedication is a must for you. Cause you're special to me :B

Boyfriend! ;)
We've been together for 62 days.
We've quarreled for umpteen times.
We've tried giving each other up for umpteen times.
We even broke up for a week. But in the end we got back together.
Many wanted us to fail. Especially me and your friends.
But after so many times of trying. We've never really let each other go.
To others,we might be quarreling every now and then.
But to us,we do know that we quarrel it's because we care.
If I don't care about you,why will I even bother to quarrel with you? ;)
If you don't care about me,why will you even bother to even quarrel with me,right?
This two months was the best days of my life. Even tho we do quarrel,our love is still the same.
We've made so many promises. We broke so many promises before too.
But now. After a week of cooling down.. The promises we've made after that one week,
will come true. Cause we know,we've grown stronger than before.
Never gonna give up on each other that easily anymore..
I don't care how others' talk about our relationship,
I don't care how others' say you're not the one for me.
As long as I know,"Benedict Ang Ke Sheng is mine." That's enough for me.
Baby,we'll continue to grow stronger together. And let us be stable 8)

As I've always say~
Thanks for tolerating my nonsense,my attitude,my tantrums,my EVERYTHING!\
I love you,you this sweet little thing ;)

p/s,you must be thinking why the hell am i taking forever to go and find you in the room right!
cause I've been busy making this for you ;)
And this thing nearly make me go nuts ._. So you better be touched! ;)

A story to tell..

2010-02-20T05:21:00.002+08:00

On a normal Friday. A girl randomly asked from her friend for a guy's number..
A guy that was just a hi and bye friend.. A guy that was her friend's crush..
She wasn't trying to snatch that guy away from her friend.. But who knows when the girl texted the guy..
The guy still remembered her.. They chatted.. The girl went drinking with her friends that night..
That guy asked her to come to his place nearby to find him.. The girl agreed..
While drinking.. the girl sent a lot of nonsense message to that guy.. But yet.. that guy cared as tho she was his only one..
That girl went to find him with her friend.. They finally met after not meeting for months..
3 of them sat on a playground talking.. And the girl's friend went off to find others.
The girl wanted to smoke so she asked the guy to go up his house to take the cigarettes.
After taking.. they went down to slack for awhile. After slacking.. they went up to the guy's house.
They fell asleep.. The next day.. the girl went home to change.. She was expecting to meet her boyfriend..
But her boyfriend failed her.. so she went to find that guy again.. She went out with that guy and his friends..
Overnight with that guy and his friends. Who knows.. feelings developed. They fell for each other..
The girl broke up with her boyfriend as she can no longer take hot n cold as replies..
After 2 days after the girl and her bf's breakup. she got together with that guy..
Everything went on smoothly.. till the bf's ex(s) came to text him trying to get his attention..
The girl broke down... she felt so terrible.. but still they overcome everything..
Nobody thought that they'll last.. Nobody thought that they could overcome all those predicaments..
Especially on 15012010,The girl slapped him.. He was disheartened by that slap..
He had never thought that she'll ever do that.. But after a day of cooling down..
they got back together.. but who knows.. on 1st Feb.. they quarreled..
2 days later.. the girl couldn't take it anymore.. and broke up with him..
the girl carried on to find her next chapter.. she got together with a guy that she've known for 5 years..
thinking that he'll not disappoint her like how the last one did.. she carried high hopes on him..
but after a week.. they finally quarreled. the guy broke up with her..
she wasn't heartbroken at all.. but she was angry.. she went over to panjang to find her friends..
contacted back that guy.. on 11th Febuary. She finally met him.. they patched..
they promised to not let each other go no matter what..
and now.. they're going on to their 2nd month..
To others',it might not mean anything..to them.. it means everything..

Yes.. that girl is me. :) And that guy is Benedict.
I've never thought that after that 1 week of break up. We'll still be back together again.
And now.stronger than before. Many wanted us to fail.
Many wanted us to break up. But no. We won't. We've grown stronger.
We've loved and lost each other. And now,we're not gonna be this stupid to let each other go again.
We might be young. But our love is true. For those that thinks that we'll not last,
it's alright. It will not affect us. For those that wanna seperate us,think again.
We'll never be pulled away by just words.
Think twice before trying to do things that will never hurt us ;)

And to those that wished us to last long, Thank you guys for supporting me :)
And especially Boon! You're the best. ;)

2010-02-17T00:16:00.002+08:00

wweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
hello everyone :D
Enjoy myself with friends nowadays! ;)
Super love Mr Sotong now!!!! HEHEHEHE. thanks for throwing red packet at your dad just so that you can come and find me.
I'm super touched! Sotongs forever! :)
I guess I'll hardly update nowadays. :)
Anyways,more and more act cute people viewing my blog luh.
So loser!!! :( oh well,^^v
i got my life,but they got no life! :O haha.
shall update the bbq pictures soon! :D

Love die,TANBOONHENG! ;)

2010-02-14T09:29:00.003+08:00

Dearest Readers!
Happy Lunar New Year!
Enjoy your day today alright! ;)

And to all the couples, Happy Valentine's Day!
Last long and avoid quarrels today! ;)

Well....I'm gonna spend my Valentine's Day alone....
But oh well. At least it's the 1st day of Chinese New Year today! ;)
I think also not quite good luh? Cause need to face my relatives....
Scary much.... Ahkim is still sleeping. Heard from Weeteck he's not going to bai nian o_o
I guess he abit sot also. Hahaha.I think I should be meeting friends to celebrate this year's Valentine!
Since Valentine's day is also friendship day. let's celebrate our friendship^^ LOL!
Or maybe rotting at home after visiting my relatives.... hm..... i wanna buy cig..... need to smoke. LOL
K. stressedd!!!!! :(

I think I should end here alr~~~~~
Hehehehe. tag more kk ;)

my cheeky little sweetie. (;

Learnt

2010-02-13T16:02:00.002+08:00

This few days,I've finally learn what is friendship.
It's okay if I lose you guys. You guys wanna blame on me,then go ahead ;)
At least now I can see who is true and who is not.
Well.. one word. Disappointed. But life's always a bitch. What more can I do? ;)
As long as I still have friends at Bukit Panjang. I'm contented already.
I don't care how people see me. I don't care how people say things about me anymore.
Positive mxy is the best! :D

and yes,I'm single again.
Good thing,no? ;)
Enjoy while I can. Hahahahahaha. ;)

anyway,Happy Chinese New Year to you guys! ;)!

2010-02-08T20:36:00.001+08:00

M.I.A

2010-02-07T23:41:00.001+08:00

Nameless freaks are stupiddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
BYE :D

Lucky

2010-02-07T09:02:00.002+08:00

~ Jason Mraz - Lucky featuring Colbie Cailla

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Chew Jing Xue,
This post is specially dedicated to you. ;)
I know you'll be super touched yea! Haha. ;)

I'm proud to have you as my boyfriend.
A boyfriend that always give in whenever I throw my tantrums.
A boyfriend that always tries to give me the best.
A boyfriend that tries to break down the wall I've build around me.
A boyfriend that always ensure me that the bad things will never happen.
A boyfriend that makes promises that you can keep.
A boyfriend that always look at my good rather than my bad(s).
A boyfriend that wants me to look positive than negative.
Baby. There's so many good things about you that I can never stop listing.
It's our 4th day being together. Tho it's just 4 days. But you've showered me with love that I can never imagine you'll give me.
Words can't explain how I feel now. As tho I'm the only girl in your eyes.
The only one that you want to have.
Thanks for making me feel so important to you.
Thanks for making me feel loved every moment I'm with you.
Thanks for making me feel like I'm the best.
Thanks for always caring about how I feel first.
Thanks for always giving in to me even when It's my fault for talking back to you.
Thanks for always spending time with me.
Thanks for trying to be the best for me.
I don't know what more can I say. But I just want you to know.
I'm glad to have you as my boyfriend...
I guess this is how you feel when you're in love with a friend that you've known for this long.
Last time I've never thought of the possibilities of being together with you.
Yet,now we're together. Heart beating as one.
I guess I'm really lucky to have you as mine. ;)

Thanks for sending all those sweet and long messages to me.
I appreciate it a lot. Never forget what you've promised.
Cause you should know me,I don't like empty promises ;)

Remember uh,I know this post also very sweet.
So~ Becareful of diabetes. :x

2010-02-06T21:01:00.002+08:00

HELLOOOOO.
I'm here to blog for today! :)
Basically,I woke up at 11am plus today! Received Baby's message.
Went to bathe. Then went down to baby's blk to meet him and Jasper :)
Walk over to Lamsoon to meet the rest. Bus-ed to Lot 1 Interchange.
Kokyang and co went over first while me,baby,Akl,sister and Xavier waited for Christopher.
So longgggggggggggggg. After he reached went to take bus over to Timah :D
Messaged Cindy and she met us over at Timah~ Went down to basement.
No pool table. But saw friends :o Went up to IRC need member then can play :(
So we went down to play computer first while waiting for a table~
Finally have table already~ Baby played with them while me and Cindy went to sing.
They ended the game like super fast lo. They jitao go off already.
Luckily Kokyang and co waited for us. So we boarded the bus with them back to CCK.
Slack around and baby send me home at around 7 i guess?
Baby's dotaing now. I'm like rotting. @_@ I wanna meet baby later onnnnnn.
But he can't la.=/ Neverminddddddddddddd. Shall find someone to come out later :B
Ps,no pictures today cause never take ah.
Anyway,just received a call from baby. Gonna go meet him help da bao food alr :D

TOODLES!

Clarification

2010-02-06T01:10:00.003+08:00

I'm here to clarify things about me and Ben.

Yes. I broke up with him.
Yes. After I broke up with him I got together with another guy.
Yes. I admit that's very bad of me to do that when his wounds had not heal.
Neither did my wounds are healed. I'm trying to heal my wound now.
So I'll stop contacting him. Stop talking to him for a period of time.
And I believe my boyfriend won't like it if my heart isn't with him.
Yes. I dare to admit I have the urge to actually text him and ask him to cheer up.
But what's the point when we have become like this? Like a total stranger.
No. I believe I did not do wrong.
No. I believe that both of us is at wrong. Not only me.
No. I believe what I did was right for him.
Ask people around me. If I do not cherish this relationship.
I'll never do anything he wants me to. I'll never accompany him even when I know my friends are neglected.
I'll never try to change cause he wants me to.
I'd never want to risk the chance of losing friends than having him.
I still remember. At 01st February midnight,we actually quarreled for no fucking reason.
YES. No reasons. I begged him. YES. I BEGGED. Sounds pathetic huhs?
I begged him to stay with me. Give me a week to change. To prove that I'll be a better girlfriend.
that night,I cried. I cried so much for him. I couldn't sleep.
Couldn't sleep at all..... I knew everything will still ended up the same..
So I told myself. I'll give him up by end of that week..
You must be thinking,I did not even try and I'll know the ending?
Ha. Let me tell you. We've promised each other we'll not give up so easily already.
If we ever quarrel again like this we'll break up. and that's it.
So now what am I doing was wrong? He was the one who initiated the break up on that day.
So can you please explain to me who is in the wrong? :)
I admit I'm at wrong too. But I doubt he feels that it's his fault.
and now all his friends are blaming me for breaking up with him and getting together with Jx now.
It's okay. I'll take it as they do not know anything.
But I just wanna clear up the misunderstandings.
I know it's unfair for Ben cause I got a boyfriend after I broke up with him.
But since I feel that Jx can make me more happier than Ben. Why not I just take the chance and be with him?
At least for now I feel that Jx is indeed more caring towards me than how I feel when I'm with Ben.
I'm not wrong for fighting for my own happiness. If I have to always think about how others' feel.
Then I might let the chance fly away and regret. Isn't it?

That's it for this kind of drama. Since my bf does not mind anything.
I guess all of your can just shut your mouth and carry on with your life.
I don't care how you judge me. Cause I know what's happening.
And what I've sacrifice for Ben. And that's about it.
If any of your still thinks that I'm always the one at wrong.
SO BE IT. I ain't gonna give a flying fuck about how you guys thinks. TSK.